Wait for it…

Living a simple sweet life, and learning to wait on the Lord

Lovely Life April 27, 2010

Filed under: Avery,Jack,Learning — Michelle @ 9:01 pm

Hi friends!!!  I’m back!  What in the world have I been doing for the 4+ months since my last post about Bert the Christmas tree, you might ask????  Well… I have been living life.  Taking time to fully recover from the difficult pregnancy and delivery that brought our sweet little girl into the world.  Learning to be a Mommy of 2.  Reading to Jack (and teaching Jack to read!)  Treasuring each new discovery Avery makes.  Gardening.  Reading the gospel of John and loving what I’m learning about my Savior.  Realizing over and over how good God was to give me Ryan.  Starting to be a friend again, and making some new friends.  Life has been sweet and beautiful lately.  Sometimes I find myself closing my eyes tight and wanting so badly to hold on to these precious moments, because I know they will pass so quickly.  But then I open them again… and I love what I see.  And I pray that I will live each precious moment with purpose…for Jesus.   Here are a few glimpses into my little world lately…

 

adorable giraffe (from Anthropologie!!) courtesy of Avery’s Aunt Melissa

 

 

 

 

 

And just because I couldn’t decide…here are a few more of Avery  🙂

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Waiting for our Little Girl… September 11, 2009

Filed under: Learning — Michelle @ 11:38 pm

I was just telling Ryan that it has been so very, very long since I’ve blogged…I have no idea how to condense the past months into a relatively cohesive post.  But he says that’s part of the joy of blogging…you can just pick up where you left off and no one really minds.  So I hope you don’t mind, blog readers, if you’re even still checking my blog, which I sort of doubt and don’t fault you for in any way if you’ve given up on me… 🙂 

 

It’s funny how you can pray and pray for something, and the Lord kindly and graciously sees fit to give it to you, yet in His perfect plan, He makes sure that you stay dependent on Him, having no cause to boast in yourself, and your weaknesses come through all the more, making His strength perfect.  That’s how this pregnancy has been for me.  In the midst of overwhelming thankfulness to God for this miracle that He has created inside me, the past months have also brought more trials on more fronts than I ever expected.  Most have had to do with the pregnancy itself, in the form of OUT OF CONTROL hormones and lots of physical pain and discomfort, pretty much the whole time.  It has been almost the complete opposite of my pregnancy with Jack, which I can now say was pure bliss compared to this one!  I feel like in some ways I don’t even know “who I am” anymore (whatever that means), or what “normal” is, and I’m just waiting for the day when I will get to see this sweet little child whose presence has brought such turmoil into my life and my emotions, yet such joy to my heart.  As of right now, I am 38 1/2 weeks into my pregnancy, and although everyone tells you “not to compare it to your last pregnancy”, which obviously this one has NOT been like, I have still fallen prey to the “maybe she’ll be 17 days early like Jack” train of thought.  Well…we’re one week beyond that point, and each day that passes has found me a little more impatient, uncomfortable, and stir crazy than the one before.  My mom came to save the day today, and she did SO much…cleaning, cooking, organizing, flower planting…but the best thing she gave me was a simple little piece of advice: “Let’s just plan on the fact that she’ll come on her due date (Sept. 21), and then maybe each day in between won’t be so frustrating for you.”  Amazing, huh????  I know…pretty simple, but in my world, pure sweet genius.

 

Over the past 6+ months since my last post, I’ve taken hundreds and hundreds of pictures, which represent hundreds and hundreds of little events that I wish I could share.  But for now, I chose just a tiny few to represent some (not all) of the things and people that have been little blessings from the Lord and have kept me going when I have wanted to give up.  Here they are in no particular order…

 

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My mom’s homemade peach pie.  Craving?  Yes.  Jack’s graduation from Master’s Kids…what a wonderful year with my sweet sweet son.  Moving into the perfect house that God provided right out of nowhere.  Jack’s hair.  The sunsets over Lake Michigan and a wonderful time of refreshment with family during our vacation.  Jack’s face.  Disneyland.  My Aunt Lana.  Friends. Specifically the Bohrs.  The Anniversary Getaway that my incredible husband planned for me, including a perfect spa day.  My sister.  My boys, who have kept me from going crazy and kept me laughing.  Coffee Bean Iced Tea with crushed ice….actually, crushed ice in general.  My mom.  Costco ice cream bars.  The beach and the beautiful girls pictured. 

 

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But mostly, this guy.  My amazing, patient, kind, thoughtful, funny, comforting, understanding, sacrificial husband.  He has been my rock, and has shown me the goodness of God more than anyone or anything else.  I think I may have mentioned it before, but I seriously don’t deserve him. 

 

That’s all for now.

 

Fragile October 4, 2008

Filed under: Learning — Michelle @ 12:15 am

I feel fragile this week.  There have been wonderful moments, like Ryan’s birthday, and our train field trip with Master’s Kids.  SO much to be thankful for.  And I am thankful…thoughtful…it has just been one of those weeks when tears are close by, and Eeyeore’s little rain cloud seems to be right there over my head, no matter which way I turn.  I don’t usually blog when I’m feeling sad…if I’ve had a hard day, I’ll wait until it’s over with and I’m a little more balanced.  But it’s Friday (almost Saturday), and that “balance” hasn’t come quite yet.  So I thought I would just go ahead and practice being vulnerable by opening up to my blog readers about where I am right now.  There’s a part of me that is afraid to publish this post.  What is so hard for me seems small in comparison to the trials of others, and I don’t want to be a drama queen.  But for a reason that only God knows, this is my trial.  Maybe I’ll publish this and then delete it later.  But for now…   

 

Here’s what contributed to “fragile”:

 

Earlier this week, “Miss Lori” on PBS Kids was asking the kid tv viewers if they had little brothers or sisters.  I was in the kitchen, but I heard Jack answer, “No, but I weely weely want to have one.”

That made my heart hurt.

 

Sometimes, even when my brain knows what is true about God– about His goodness, His timing, His perfect plan…even when I know what is true about my life– that I am blessed beyond what I deserve in the gift of salvation and the hope of heaven, that I have an incredible husband, a sweet son, wonderful family and friends…even then it is hard.  Hard to wait for something my heart desires.  Something that is a GOOD thing.  Something that seems so easy for so many people.  And it is hard to fight off the lies that threaten to seep in…lies that say that God doesn’t care…that he forgot…

  

Below is something I read that reminded me of the good nature of trials.  Without them I would be “cold, worldly, and unspiritual.”  But through them I am learning.  Learning to love God’s ways more than mine.  Learning that this trial, this pain, isn’t a mistake, but is God’s way of drawing me closer to Him…making me more and more dependent on Him.  These truths are what I’m clinging to, even when the feelings aren’t there…even when it hurts.  My grip feels weak, but I’m clinging as hard as I can and trusting that God won’t let me go.

 

“The Ministry of Comfort”

(J. R. Miller, 1898)

Before I was afflicted I went astray–but
 now I keep Your word
.” Psalm 119:67

 

Most of us need the chastening of affliction.
Pain is a wonderful revealer. It teaches us many
things we never could have known, if we had
not been called to endure it. It opens windows
through which we see, as we never saw before
–the beautiful things of God’s love.

Many of the finest things in character, are the
fruits of pain
. Many a Christian enters trial–cold,
worldly, unspiritual–and emerges from the
experience a little later, with spirit softened,
mellowed, and spiritually enriched.

Sanctified afflictions soften the harshness and
sharpness of one’s character. They consume the
dross of selfishness and worldliness. They humble
pride. They temper carnal ambitions. They quell
fierce passions. They show to us the evil of our
own heart, revealing our weaknesses, faults, and
blemishes–and making us aware of our spiritual
danger. They discipline the wayward spirit.

Sorrow draws its sharp ploughshare through the
heart, cutting deep and long furrows–and the
heavenly Sower follows with the seeds of godly
virtues. Then by and by, fruits of righteousness
spring up.

Sorrow has a tenderizing influence. It makes us
gentle and kindly toward each other. In no other
school, do our hearts learn the lessons of patience,
tolerance, and forbearance so quickly–as in the
school of suffering.

 

It was good for me to be afflicted–so that
 I  could learn Your statutes
.” Psalm 119:71

 

My Master’s Kid!! September 10, 2008

Filed under: Fun,Learning — Michelle @ 11:51 am

Yesterday Jack and I went to our first day of The Master’s Kids!  TMK is a Mommy-and-me preschool program through our church that meets once a week on Tuesdays.  After our first time meeting together, I am SO excited for this year of new experiences with my sweet son!  Here’s a glimpse of our first day…

 

Super cute cake with the logo of TMK

 

Each month we will focus on a different Fruit of the Spirit (this month is Patience) and a different theme (this month is Transportation).  And, each week we will focus on a different letter of the alphabet.  Jack and I are on the Apple team!

 

As we come in each week, Jack gets to sign his name

 

The Master’s Kids 08-09!  Jack did a great job (mostly) sitting quietly with his feet on the floor.  This is the first school experience most of these kids have had, so they were a wiggly bunch.  🙂  SO cute!  That’s Jack’s friend David on his right, and Isaac on his left (next to the kid you can’t see…)

 

      

Each kid got to go up front and introduce him or herself, then his or her mom…and Jack actually did it!  I was so proud.  🙂

 

Craft time…here we are making our Fruit of the Spirit mobile together

 

Stoplight Craft!

 

I’m so thankful for this time with Jack…I know it will go by so fast so I’m treasuring every moment!

 

Weekend Ramblings August 30, 2008

Filed under: Fun,Learning,Summer — Michelle @ 11:17 pm

I keep reading really clever memes and other posts at the end of the week that have to do with favorite moments or highlights…so I thought I would join in for this week.

 

In no particular order…

 

1. I heart the Whittler Public Library.  And so does Jack.  Because when you join the Summer Reading Club and read the designated number of books, you get a certificate…aaaand a cookie the size of your face.

 

    

2.  My new umbrella stand, which holds my beautiful umbrella SO much better than the other one (you can see it there next to next to the new one…it’s the cheapy looking plastic thing…oh well, that’s what I get for paying $5, right?)

 

 

3.  Discovering a DELICIOUS new dessert…Grilled Peach Melba… and trying it out on the band at our BBQ (I think the recipe will have to be its own post…)

 

 

4.  This post from GirlTalk, which was so timely, because I had just been thinking and praying about Jack’s salvation and wondering if seemingly simple spiritual conversations are beginning to click in his little mind, and wanting so badly for him to understand the Gospel…

This is the part that really encouraged my anxious heart —

(Speaking of Deut. 6:4-7 “…these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise…” )

“These verses describe the stuff of sowing. We must talk to our children every day, instruct them throughout the day, teach them in every circumstance, train them on every occasion, tell them God’s words over and over again…Scripture does not give us an exact timetable for the duration of sowing. But Scripture does tell us: “In due season we will reap, if we do not give up” (Galatians 6:9).”

 

 

5.  I love this color!!  I’m realizing more and more little things that have been appearing around my house…mostly in the kitchen.  I’m calling it Tiffany Blue, although I know it’s not exactly the same shade…plus it looks a lot lighter in these pictures.  Thanks, Aunt Ellen, for your part in quite a few of these treasures!! 

 

Happy Labor Day weekend, everyone!  🙂

 

Our Thorn August 25, 2008

Filed under: Bible,Learning — Michelle @ 4:26 pm

Our Thorn

J.R. Miller (“The Building of Character”, 1894)

 

“Lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure.”

2 Corinthians 12:7

 

Paul tells us that his “thorn” was given to him–to keep him humble, and save him from spiritual peril. Without it, he would have been exalted above measure and would have lost his spirituality. We do not know how much of his deep insight into the things of God, and his power in service for his Master–Paul owed to this torturing “thorn”. It seemed to hinder him, and it caused him incessant suffering–but it detained him in the low valley of humility, made him ever conscious of his own weakness and insufficiency, and thus kept him near to Christ whose home is with the humble.

 

Who has not his “thorn”?

 

We should never forget that in one sense, our “thorn” is a “messenger of Satan,” who desires by it–to hurt our life, to mar our peace, to spoil the divine beauty in us, and to break our communion with Christ.

 

On the other hand, however, Christ Himself has a loving design in our “thorn.” He wants it to be a blessing to us. He would have it keep us humble–and save us from becoming vain. Or He means it to soften our hearts–and make us more gentle. He would have the uncongenial things in our environment to discipline us into heavenly-mindedness, give us greater self-control, and help us to keep our hearts loving and sweet–amid harshness and unlovingness.

 

He would have our pain teach us endurance and patience; and our sorrow and loss teach us faith.

 

Thus, our “thorn” may either be a choice blessing to us–or it may do us irreparable harm. If we allow it to fret us; if we chafe, resist, and complain; if we lose faith and lose heart–it will spoil our life! But if we accept it in the faith that in its ugly burden–it has a blessing for us; if we endure it patiently, submissively, unmurmuringly; if we seek grace to keep our heart gentle and true amid all the trial, temptation, and suffering it causes–it will work good for us, and out of its bitterness–will come sweet fruit!

 

Monday Musings July 14, 2008

Filed under: Bible,Jack Stories,Learning,Summer — Michelle @ 1:03 pm

For all of my readers who have Disneyland annual passes or just like Disneyland and want to know more about it, here’s a helpful piece of information.  Just in case you temporarily misplace your pass (or, in this case, your son’s pass), because it got left in the wallet of your cousin Debbee who was kind enough to take him to see both the Pixar parade in California Adventure and the Parade of Dreams in Disneyland while you went to the Blue Bayou for dinner a few weeks ago, you’ll be glad to know that Disneyland will be happy to issue you one (1) Courtesy Visit Certificate per year.  After that, if you find that your pass is gone forever, they will be happy to charge you $20 to replace it.  So there you go.

 

I’m getting ready to leave for my trip to Seattle for Susi and Jonathan’s wedding…it feels a little weird to be taking a trip by myself without my boys…last summer Ryan and Jack took a trip to Michigan, and while they were gone I kept busy by redecorating our bedroom (see collage below).  But this time, I’m the one leaving.  Since the temp. will be about 20 degrees cooler in WA (73 degrees) than its supposed to be down here in CA (93 degrees), I have to shift my wardrobe thoughts, too!

 

 

 

Yesterday in Crossroads, Rick Holland’s message was from 1 Peter 5:8-11 on “A Believer’s Strategy for Enduring Difficult Times”, which consists of 1) Preparing Yourself for suffering and trials by being in the Word (“Yes, this is the Read Your Bible More sermon”), 2) Resisting Satan and fleeing sin and temptation by being firm in your faith and having your mind on Christ, and 3) Trusting God, who is full of all Grace and will Himself perfect, confirm, strengthen, and establish His children!  It was a convicting and challenging message.

What stuck with Ryan and I was the comment he made when he was talking about being in the Word.  He said this: “I have never counseled someone who is struggling with a serious sin issue who was having deep and consistent times with the Lord.”  He also quoted John MacArthur by saying “When a man falls into sin, he doesn’t fall very far.”  It reminded both of us of what one of my uncles describes as “being a soldier in your heart” for Christ.

 

One final thought:

Jack has been into being a superhero lately.  The first pic is of him just before he saved the world (good thing he had both pairs of sunglasses…)  Then, at the end of last week, Jack got to hang out with his buddy Ethan while our good friends the Bohrs were visiting, and they played and played and played.  The second pic is of the superhero buddies in action, “defeating the bad guys”.  You can be assured the world is really safe now.